Exhausted

I am so physically and mentally exhausted.

Here is a breakdown of why this is so. 

Each and every morning I repeat 6 times...I am not going to kill myself wake up. This is where it becomes tricky. 

As I explained to David the only thing I want to do on a daily basis are die, or lay flat with my face down in a pillow. 

Enter the crazies children. 

I am never happy.

Every smile, laugh, slight look of interest....it's all fake. 

The kids haven't caught on yet. 

Professionals say they do, but mine haven't. 

So the energy I am supposed to have curing Autism helping X, working out, having sex, and being a gourmet chef is gone. 

I am so exhausted at the end of the day from all of this.


I was contemplating crashing my car into anything driving last night and thought about something. 

You probably shouldn't feel this way if you are overdosing taking the right brand/dose of medication. 

This is how sick I actually am. 

Due to exhaustion I didn't even notice this??? 

I really am going mad.