Feels Like The First Time

In cyber space these days I don't even know how to give credit for an original post. 

I read an article on Mama Pop, which swiped the article for somewhere else. 

Anyway, the queation was...What things/events we would like to experience all over again?


I knew mine immediately. 

Sebastian's birth. 

I don't remember much of it, but the things I do remember are somber. 

I was alone and had only visitor. 

Brandy. B if you ever read this,  please know how much it mattered.

I stopped nursing Sebastian after three weeks because I was tired and felt like I just stopped nursing Xavier. 

I had post partum depression and looking back now, should have been medicated 6 months after Xavier was born. 

I wasn't.


The only thing I clinged to for a shred of happiness was a sparkly butterfly helium balloon I had seen while getting groceries at the Superstore. 

I admired it for a while and it was the only time I smiled or felt anything. 

David brought this balloon to the hospital which probably saved my life. (good call David)